I can hardly believe it. I am embarking on my
last week of internship. Already. Time flew by, quite literally, and so fast! I
feel like I have been gone from school forever, but yet, two weeks? I am really
wrecking all my senses of time lately. I sometimes even found myself forgetting
which day of the week it was. Especially Wednesdays… I don’t know why each and
every Wednesday felt like a Thursday. I just don’t understand why, because there
is no specific reason that justifies my troubled sense of time.
Anyhow, back to the internship
experiences. Calm days and less eventful days have been a rarity in my life
these past few days (or could I extend to months, or even years?). But today, I
would say, quite fits the description of a calm and less eventful day. As I am
writing this post, I keep thinking, “Wait, what can I write?” For once, dearest
readers, you will be blessed with a shorter post from Se Jeong’s Internship
blog. Yay for your time-saving!
I believe I spent a good forty
minutes chattering with April. For, yes, Mu arrived around forty minutes late
today. Despite the limited amount of time, Mu managed to complete almost all
the exercises on his file. He should have felt very accomplished when he left
on his school bus at 10h30. Usually, it takes a tremendous amount of persuasion
and running behind his “catch-me-if-you-can”s to go through the same quantity
of exercises. Mu is a bright pupil, really, and if he keeps as focused as he
was today, his progress would be considerable.
If Mu was concentrated, Ta was the
complete opposite. Ta was as distracted as could be, even though Ana was not
there. Everything and anything could catch his attention, digress him away from
April’s and my instructions. I could feel my cheek muscle twitching; I was
forcing myself to keep smiling brightly that hard. My patience boiled to the
limit, threatening to spill over, but I somehow managed to keep my tolerance
level slightly (oh so slightly) above. April was in a similar tense state. She
would occasionally (and increasingly frequently) glance at me, rolling her eyes
to signify her irritation. I would bite my lip and let out my breath before
going back to the task of engaging Ta to finish the ten-piece puzzle he had
begun six minutes earlier. Working with the distracted Ta exhausted me. I knew
I had to maintain my composure and a pleasant demeanor. I knew and I knew.
However, knowing does not guarantee an easy task in doing. Phew, at least I can
now feel happy I managed to go through the trial successfully.
Except for Ta, everything went
smoothly. Even Br recovered fully from his depression! I was happy to see energetic
and loud, merry Br again. Of course, his constant and consistent lines ring in
my head for the rest of the day (and evening). But I prefer seeing and hearing
him so than watching him struggle through his down mood. He still comes to
twist my fingers though, and he’ll keep on until I’m not there anymore.
Until I’m not there anymore… I wonder
if the children will notice my absence. The teenagers will; they are aware and
in touch with their surroundings. But the children, I am not sure. Some might,
others I am doubtful. Of one thing only I am certain of: I know I will miss
them.
I have grown attached to the students. You have given them such a good description and such a voice. SVocale
ReplyDeleteOh really? That's a relief! I was worried I rambled on about the students throughout my posts with no one really following what I said, because I always forget I am the only who has seen them.
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